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I use this blog for most things but I want one with a more personal touch one that I can be more free with. I have had this blog since 2009 and It is clustered with posts. Although I will always post on here I really want to use this new blog for things that are completely different and take an entirely new direction. I really think if you like this blog Then you’ll love my new one so please check it out

Man I just turned on my phone because I remebered I got free minutes this month and it wont turn on because JOSH let Bently play with it and he broke it!

Fuck it

How is it that everything in my life should be so simple, and yet its so complicated? I really think that Josh and I need to take time apart, but everytime I want to bring it up I get to nervous because I feel like he won’t come back. Grandma is in the hospital because they found a poison in her blood yet for some reason can’t tell us what the poison is. In january she had to have a colonoscapy or however you spell it and a blood transfusion ( where they think the poison came from ) and she was suppose to be schedualed for a reversal next week but yesterday the nurse came and drew blood from a port of I.V’s they left in. and it was thick. And today when the cultures came back in they said she needed to imidiatly admitt herself into the E.R. I was flushing the port each day and administering the medicene through there as well. somehow I feel like this is my fault even though I know it couldn’t be. Anyways that and the stress of Bently who has been very cranky latley because of teething is causing alot of strain on Mine and Joshs relationship. I don’t know what to do anymnore and on top of all that when taxes came in for me and Josh my grandpa MADE us give him 1400 and said he would graduly give it back to us to help us save it but now after buying the car we are out of money and grandpa is saying that its his money now. and with niether of us having jobs I feel like im failing as a mother, and as a wife. I just feel overwhelmed and It has brought back a lot of bad habits.

My little man has been having a lot of sleeping issues. I think its because he’s teething but I’m not sure. He woke up last night at 3 and didn’t want to go back to bed until like 6. He’s in his swing right now sleeping but every time I move him he wakes up. I guess I’m going to try again WISH ME LUCK!

(Reblogged from crudmudgeon)
(Reblogged from niggerbitchhoecunt)

I can’t even explain my disapointment right now